Day 1: Scared

Its the first day and I am scared of what it will be like, if I will be successful and if it would be a loving, caring and supporting institution. Being the only adult at the age of 20 with adolescents no older than 17 is a let down because I feel alone. Nobody my age goes through this. I am an outcast. I am hopeful but at the same this I feel hopeless because I know this place is the best institution in the state of Indiana, at least this is what I have been told. I know what it will be like though. They will try to fix me. I will find people my age, in college that know exactly what I am going through. It will be locked down, but since I am only partially hospitalized I will get to go home at nine o'clock pm. The activities will all be simple, but helpful. I am an adult so I can sign myself out if I want, I can continue the addiction if I desire and I will call the shots.